Anxiety – the Joy Killer
Philippians 4:2–7
2 I entreat Euodia and I
entreat Syntyche to agree in the Lord. 3 Yes, I ask you also, true companion, help these
women, who have labored side by side with me in the gospel together with
Clement and the rest of my fellow workers, whose names are in the book of life.
4 Rejoice in the
Lord always; again I will say, rejoice. 5 Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The
Lord is at hand; 6 do
not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication
with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7 And the peace of God,
which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in
Christ Jesus.
This morning, writing this blog comes on the immediate heels of a “calendar
meeting” with my husband. We often sit down in the morning just to review what
is coming up in the day so that we aren't working at cross purposes or expecting
something of the other that just isn’t possible because of schedules. Suddenly
I was overwhelmed with the coming few days. So many events, Bible studies,
meeting, meals, you name it – it all just came crashing in and I felt anxiety
rise up in my heart. Then I turn to the devotional passage set before us today
and God’s timing (and perhaps even a bit of His sense of humor) just blows me
away.
“The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about
anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let
your requests be made known to God.”
And there it is. My anxiety serves no purpose whatsoever and
in fact I am admonished to set that aside because it displays a lack of trust
in our awesome God. Now that "setting aside" is usually easier said than done, but it is
possible. And I confess that it may take me several minutes. But to continue in
the anxiety is not the path that God has for me.
Anxiety is an interesting emotion. It has power. If you step
outside of that anxiety and examine it up close you will find that it is usually
based on lies or faulty thinking. This morning I was borrowing all of the tasks
that are up-coming in the next 10 days and piling them onto today. That is
utterly ridiculous. A few years ago I was in a similar state when my secretary came
into my office and saw me with my head in my hands. When asked what was I wrong
I began a litany of all the stuff that was on my plate for the next several
days. I was borrowing all of it and dumping into that moment. One of my memory
practices was to place sticky notes along the base of my computer with upcoming
tasks or things I didn't want to forget to do. He said, “Well, the first thing
we’re going to do is take these notes down.” That visual reminder of what was
coming was filling my head and my heart with anxiety. Then we focused on the
tasks that I could accomplish within the next 2 hours. In hindsight, it seems
like a stupid thing that I allowed to happen. But – well, I won’t make excuses.
Fast forward to this morning and while I don’t have sticky
notes all over my computer, I allowed my calendar to dictate my emotional temperature
until God’s Word came alone and changed the tone – completely. Those myriad of
tasks and events has now been lifted before God and left in His hands. I know –
it’s all so simple and all so difficult to achieve sometimes. And by sometimes,
I mean when I’m in control.
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